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Thankful

It's hard to not be thankful for everything you have when you live in Canada. We have a profound wealth in this country. It is a profound privilege. So. Thankful.

Reflecting tonight, I realized how tired and overwhelmed I felt. J and I have been talking a lot about the property and there is so much work to do before we can even start. It gets overwhelming. I have been trying to preserve some food, research food storage, and keep this 100 year old house clean while homeschooling Sally, trying to integrate and find friends into a new community and mother 2 growing and developing children. It gets overwhelming. The massive amounts of learning I have to do, the putting myself out there being vulnerable with new friends, the homeschooling and the planning for the future of this property 5, 10 and 15 years down the road. The giant spiders the size of twoonies, the great white sharks and jelly fish in the ocean, the snakes, literally, in the grass that surrounds our home. Whew, it's a lot. 

The amazing thing is, I have been able to let go of a lot here. Let myself be imperfect and vulnerable and learn. Let go of my ego. Take the time to answer the 5 why's from my 4 year old, crawl on the floor with Ruby, bring Justin lunch in the wildness and not feel like I have to fling branches or feel like I am failing at helping him on the land. I've tried so hard to enjoy this transition, feel the feelings and let myself explore how and why I am feeling them and then learn to let it go. 

I feel whole here. Like I have found the missing piece that I have spent the last 40 years trying to find. It's refreshing. It feels so much better to let go of some of the expectations that I have put on myself previously. I am by no means perfect at letting go, learning is a process. But, I am trying and getting better at it each and everyday.

For all this, I am so thankful. I am thankful for my young, healthy family. I am thankful for my hard working husband. I am thankful for the budding community we are developing here. I am thankful we have so much extended family that loves us near and far. We have so much abundance, so much support and so much love. It's hard not to be thankful in every way each and every day. Most particularly on this, Thanksgiving weekend. 

We are so blessed and for that, so very thankful.

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